Its been awhile

Ok so its been a few days since I posted anything. I feel the need to rant so I will. You've been warned.

So today I had another Chinese oral presentation. I totally bombed it, a horrifying experience. I didn't have much time to prepare for this one because yesterday I had to drive a total of 5 hours to bring my roommate back from the airport. I wrote out the presentation last night but didn't practice after class today. I tried going second and tripped up on my second sentence. I froze up and my mind blanked. I had to sit back down and go last. I screwed up so much, I feel sick just thinking about it.

Today in general was just a bad day. I don't know why, there's no reason it should've been really. I'm beginning to think that I should really check in with the Health Center's shrink. I don't think I can though. I don't want the school to freak out and then say I can't go to Japan because I went to talk to the shrink. I feel like I can't risk it. Its almost like I'm trapped. My other friend has also been struggling with some issues and she also applied to go to Japan and she's worried too. We're thinking of going to the Health Center and asking, hypothetically, if the shrink will have to tell the school and study abroad office if a student comes in. I admit, I'm scared. If I can't go to Japan, I don't know what I'll do.

I have my first midterm this Friday, and I'm not looking forward to it. Its for my American Politics class. I don't like that class, my professor and the book we use are so obviously biased. I mean, no one is perfect so I expect a little bias but the book is so, so, obvious about it. I've always expected textbooks to just present the facts and let you do the critical thinking and make your own judgements based on the facts and evidence. Not with this class. Its my biggest class and all the professor does is lecture or show videos, so there's not really a chance to discuss anything. Also, the professor is the department chair for the Government Department, which is my major, so I don't want to stand out to him anyway. At least my morning class on Friday is canceled, I just have to turn in a paper. Always got to look for the very faint silver lining.

Tomorrow I should be getting one of my makeup shipments. I ordered some Too Faced eye primer and it comes with some free samples. I'm excited! I'll finally have some decent eye shadow primer so hopefully eye show will actually stick to my eyes. It normally wears almost right off and creases like mad. I also ordered the Everyday Minerals Elements Water Special kit and that should be coming in soon. I'm also excited about this kit because I think the junior eye kabuki brush will be really good for loose eye shadows. Once I get these packages I'll see if I can post some looks with the Sweet Libertine eye shadows that I got earlier this month. I'll see if I can post some photos using my different, new make up.

There are some make up I want to check out on Etsy. I've been looking at various makeup websites like MAC, Sephora, Urban Decay and the like, but all of them are a little on the expensive side for me right now. So I think I'll go for the natural makeup from sellers on Etsy. I like supporting the online entrepreneurs, and I feel like I can really trust the quality because of the personal oversight of the products. But I'm not going to snub the big guys, I'm looking forward to Spring Break when I can go back to 'civilization', and go to the really big mall where there's a Sephora and MAC store. I also can't wait to go back to the two LYSes near my parents' house.